She hears what he says, because of course she hears it, because she's a vampire and maybe she doesn't hear everything in the known world but she can hear him, and she stops, and turns around, closing her eyes for a minute. And then-
"I forgot my shoes," she says first as she comes back into his room, stopping in front of him, like there's a reason, and she's staring at him. "You were supposed to say that it would be okay, that I won't just be dead, that I can figure out the college thing, and that if I really want it that much I can, I don't know, compel my way in. You're supposed to- unless you think I'm just going to die, and if you think I'm going to die, then why are you bothering, and why do you even want this? Why-" She's drunk - legitly drunk, after that blue thing, and she's not gotten her shoes yet and she's staring at him. "Why be nice? Why send me bracelets and drawings and talk to me about art and be charming if you think I'm just going to die?"
Because she's scared of it, because she's scared of dying and she doesn't expect him to say he'll save her, but that he thinks she'll live out the year, even. "And what is that? What is you saying you'll see me around, because okay, okay, I said you were my boyfriend, even though you're not now, because in eighty years you could be, and- I mean, what we did. I liked it. I like- I like spending time with you like this and I don't want to leave, but then when I'm being all soul-bearing, you just up and say that I called you my boyfriend, when it's so not the point, and like, I get it, you know? I get that Elena's blood is magical or whatever, but you getting to point out that I said some stuff doesn't make what I was talking about - which I have never told anyone, that it's just crap and can be ignored."
She's standing in front of him, and she's spilling her guts and she doesn't even know if he's listening, and she just finishes it with "And I want to kiss you again, because I'm crazy, and I really can't deal with it if you just sort of push me away, so will you?"
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"I forgot my shoes," she says first as she comes back into his room, stopping in front of him, like there's a reason, and she's staring at him. "You were supposed to say that it would be okay, that I won't just be dead, that I can figure out the college thing, and that if I really want it that much I can, I don't know, compel my way in. You're supposed to- unless you think I'm just going to die, and if you think I'm going to die, then why are you bothering, and why do you even want this? Why-" She's drunk - legitly drunk, after that blue thing, and she's not gotten her shoes yet and she's staring at him. "Why be nice? Why send me bracelets and drawings and talk to me about art and be charming if you think I'm just going to die?"
Because she's scared of it, because she's scared of dying and she doesn't expect him to say he'll save her, but that he thinks she'll live out the year, even. "And what is that? What is you saying you'll see me around, because okay, okay, I said you were my boyfriend, even though you're not now, because in eighty years you could be, and- I mean, what we did. I liked it. I like- I like spending time with you like this and I don't want to leave, but then when I'm being all soul-bearing, you just up and say that I called you my boyfriend, when it's so not the point, and like, I get it, you know? I get that Elena's blood is magical or whatever, but you getting to point out that I said some stuff doesn't make what I was talking about - which I have never told anyone, that it's just crap and can be ignored."
She's standing in front of him, and she's spilling her guts and she doesn't even know if he's listening, and she just finishes it with "And I want to kiss you again, because I'm crazy, and I really can't deal with it if you just sort of push me away, so will you?"